this ones from the archives.

I drafted this post so long ago. I couldn't even tell you, exactly how old.. these thoughts are starting to mold-
in the crevices of
my brain.
...

the night seemed indecisive, as if even it couldn't decide how to feel. hot then cold. falling asleep to rain storms. what happened to the sunshine. it felt so good on my face this morning..
now

the lightning is illuminating the sky.. where's the deafening thunder?
this is the sort of storm I always get caught in. late night sudden showers. only thing to do is take off my shoes. barefooted, walking down the middle of the street.. ill let these two yellow lines led me home. but what i don't understand.. is why this rain is so cold.
...

waking up this morning, I hardly recognized the space I was in. it felt like my apartment but yet, it still felt as if I was in a dream. floating around, like a ghost. carelessly drifting .

I rearranged everything. for a year I felt like I was just living in the corners of empty spaces. dust bunnies & cobwebs. slowly I'm editing the clutter.
weeding out. and in a little while, you'll say "wow".
  you'll hardly recognize me at all.
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I hope to god you don't recognize me.


          these ups and downs are getting old. who would've known this story endings already been told. the credits are rolling; and the audience has already gotten up to leave.
see? they all expected a twist ending. but all you gave them was a stereotypical played out ending.

girl likes boy.
boy likes girl.

but nothing ever lasts in this world.

soon:

girl falls for boy

boy lets her fall.

girl over thinks

&boy decides to stop taking her calls

the end: thats all.

so you see, please forgive me if i tread carefully. because this is hot water to thin ice
and im afraid i might just,

let myself drown,  if i let myself 

fall through the cracks

once more.

please dont try to save me. ive sealed my fate.

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